Wednesday, September 3, 2014

Obsession is a weird thing

Spetember 3, 2014 My niece, Red Doll, is now a big sister. Little sister, we'll call her Boogie, is 1 now. I never thought any child could be as cute and beautiful and amazing as Red Doll, but Boogie is just as cute and beautiful and wonderful and I just can't help but think about how amazing my sister is at mothering these two amazing girls. I can't imagine a world without these three girls.

I haven't looked at this blog for almost 2 years now, and I'm glad I still have it. Around the time I last posted on here, I was well on my way into an addiction to Kpop and Youtube after my break-up with Facebook. It was the first obsession I'd discovered in a long time and I rode that high until lately. Granted, I've had down  moments from it. And I'm suffering a down moment now. 2013 was a strange year and I didn't bother to even look at this blog for that entire year. I was still high on my Kpop obsession and didn't need anything else besides Pinterest. I will say, thanks to my walking buddy Mo, I've discovered that I always have a low time this time of year.

I think because August 2007 is when my parents broke up their marriage of 1 million years, my half-sister exited our lives in the same fashion(a gotdam typhoon) she'd entered a year prior(taking my nephew with her), my marrigae was on the rocks due to my inability to cope with it all, and all of my childhood traumas surfaced. Since ya know, everything else was falling apart, so why not? All of it was devastating and I've still not completely recovered but I can honestly say, I'm better than I've ever been. And while it all feels like yesterday, I just realized today that 2007 was SEVEN YEARS AGO. WHAT????? WHERE? HOW?

Despite all rough patches mentioned above, and excluding a ton more I didn't even mention, 2014 is shoring up to be the best year in my life so far. I have a new niece, I've untangled my emotions with my codependent family, husband and I sold a house, and are building a new and ridiculously fabulous new house, and I couldn't have ever imagined I'd have this kind of opportunity in my life. I'm really grateful and excited and not sure what to say. But I am glad I kept this blog and I hope I'll keep up with it for a while. At least for future me that will be grateful.


Randomness that makes me laugh

These things might not entertain anyone else, but I have to share just in case there is some weirdo out there that gets me.

I was in the kitchen, and Mike was watching tv, apparently The Shawshank Redemption was on. He walks into the kitchen for a snack and casually says to me "Did you know that Andy Dufresne disappeared like a fart in the wind?"

I was taking video of my niece, who is almost 2. I was trying to get her to look at the camera, and I was badgering her a bit. She doesn't like to be on camera. So she keeps ignoring me until she finally gets fed up, and she says, with much attitude "I'm BUSY!". Still doesn't look at the camera though!

"I'm gonna motorboat that popcorn!" Me, with my beer filter in place(which means every random thought pretty much gets vocalized), at the sight of the most enormous tub of popcorn I've ever seen.